At times i question the animosities i feel, the reasons, the causes and i wonder whether i have a conclusion that'll leave me settled. I question a lot of things. Then there are times where i lay in bed with a blank mind but with a troubled heart. There are so many things that trigger these moments, leaving me squeezing my lids shut praying the day is over. Then i wonder, could it be all a dream? I try to visually pinch myself but i open my eyes and i'm still awake. Living isn't hard. Its just one of those nights. You try so hard to stay in slumber. You don't know what or why is irking you to get up and discover. You want to know whats been troubling you but when you wake, you lose all memory of it.
Then you get up, sit in front of your laptop in the dark till your eyes start to hurt from the bright light and you ask yourself, what am i saying? Am i even making sense? You're the only lighted up source in the dark and all is black. You don't see whats beyond your screen. Could it all be defined as such?
Maybe you're not suppose to know those things, maybe you should stop trying to figure them out cause some things are just beyond your control.
Maybe,
I should stop questioning blank time and space.
Maybe i should catch some shut eye.
Then maybe, i'll feel better tomorrow.
Someone, remind me when i wake.
Remind me that all the ugly is beautiful.
Remind me to find the little mercy caught in everyone.
D.
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